Even though I am almost 21 years old, I feel like I am just getting to that adulthood "crossroads" now. Yes, I have lived on my own for the past 3 years and had to go through learning how to take care of myself while going to school full time and being away from my family. However, now that I have moved home again for awhile being an "adult" is getting more and more real. I just keep thinking how this will be the last time I live at home and pretty soon there will be no turning back. I will be forced to make big, tough decisions that could affect the rest of my life. Things like furthing my school (occupational therapy or something else?), getting married, having children, buying a house, etc. You know, all those "adult" adventures. It just doesn't seem real that I am already 21 years old, I swear just yesterday I graduated from high school.
I guess what I am getting at is that life is pretty scary the older you get. So many tricky decisions, choices that will affect and shape the rest of your life. Everything seems so uncertain right now for me and that scares the crap out of me. It makes me emotional and stressed out. I am somebody who likes to have a plan but I need to learn to go with the flow and trust that I will end up where I am meant to be. I just don't want to look back on my early years and regret not taking more chances or being more adventurous and spontaneous. I want to look back and say "wow my life was full, crazy, and amazing" and " I really lived life to the fullest". It's okay that nothing is certain, it's okay to be scared and cautious and worry about the unknown. However, it's also okay to throw caution to the wind and let yourself be young, wild and free. That is exactly my plan. I want to stop stressing and being so uptight and just live. Plain and simple. Life is so rich!
Just some food for thought. It is something that has been on my mind lately, so I am glad to post about this topic and get the weight off my shoulders.
Have you ever been at the "adults crossroads"? How did you deal with it?
Please tell me "adulthood" isn't all that bad. I don't want to grow up just yet!
Wow! All I can say is meeeee tooooo. I guess when we look back everything seems scary and daunting at the time. First day of university, a new job, new friends etc. And yet we can look back and see that we made it through. And I firmly believe (telling myself all this too!) that we will make it through these upcoming, scary crossroads and curveballs and be able to look back and say WE DID IT!!!! :)
ReplyDeleteI answered by email but I have no clue if it worked. I basically said I love your optimistic and positive attitude :) its true. We will all make it through. Sometimes you just have to throw caution to the wind :)
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ReplyDeleteAs you have pointed out before, the decisions we made when we were a lot younger lead to outcomes that taught us a lot about life. Those life lessons ultimately helped in shaping us into who we are today, right? That's a pretty big deal! Therefore, even the choices we made when we were very, very young were pretty important decisions...our futures depended on them, we just didn't know it yet! I think the big difference is that we now know that. We are overly aware that our decisions and choices have major consequences...I think we just have to remember that we have been making important decisions all along and we have all turned out wonderfully!! :)
So so true. Every thing we do and experience ends up shaping the rest of our lives, maybe that's why I feel so scared and unsure. However at some point you just have to let the fear disappear! Youre so positive and cheery, I love it and appreciate your insight hun :)
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